Have you ever felt like you didn’t have a care in the world?
You weren’t worried about money, love, or material things.
If you haven’t yet experienced this for yourself, I invite you to explore with me the possibility.
It will likely feel totally foreign at first.
The inner peace you feel as a result of practicing this distinct way of being will have you happier than you ever imagined.
So, come explore with me.
The road that leads to nowhere-Desperation
I can’t be alone when I admit that I have felt financial lack in my life.
Knowing that if I didn’t get that bonus, raise or job that I would be counting pennies to pay for gas.
It was embarrassing and I was ashamed.
How could I overspend?
I’m so horrible at math, there must be something I’m doing wrong.
Let me add that again, see what bills have already come out and…oh crap…I’m in the negative.
That’s going to be more fees to pay and my credit cards are maxed…now what?
All those thoughts led me to feeling desperate.
I was exuding desperation, trying to figure out how I would get things to work.
Time after time, yes it happened many, I somehow made things work.
I caused a lot of trauma for myself in the meantime, yet it still worked.
That got me thinking, if it worked anyway, why couldn’t I do it without the self-inflicted trauma?
Those dirty rats-Expectation and Judgement
As I began to explore what I was experiencing I noticed all the negative feelings.
Sadness, shame, depression and guilt.
I thought for sure if I just put my attitude in check that would make everything better.
I began with what I thought would be the best positive mental attitude overhaul.
I tried affirmations, I meditated to no avail, I still felt the same about my financial circumstance.
Then I noticed how busy my mind was whenever I would think of money.
And how I couldn’t quiet it down.
There was no forgetting the negative thoughts or pushing them away.
They were there and no matter how hard I tried to force them to go, the longer they stayed.
As I observed the mental shit storm, I allowed myself to create, I saw how hateful I was to myself.
I expected better of myself, I was too old for this.
Why do I always fail? I expected a different outcome.
I believed I was not good at math, not worthy of money and too dumb to understand how to make it.
As I continued to witness those thoughts, which were extremely real to me, I saw that my thoughts were mean to me.
I was internally judging the hell out of myself and expectations were causing me to attach myself to the outcome, I suck at predicting the future, so I suffered a lot.
And it wasn’t only in relation to money, it was prominent everywhere in my mind.
The thought that changed it all-Everything works out perfectly.
I have watched through the years how everything always fell into place.
How I always had enough money at the right time?
Or I would end up with the perfect side gig to help me financially.
The right client always came through, I was able to smile and be happy even after the trauma.
Life is constantly teaching us lessons, and if we care enough to look, we will find a way to view things differently.
When I recognized the beauty in that everything was always working out for me, I felt free.
Life became easier.
There was no need to worry, no need to fear.
I knew the money would come.
I understood that the people in my life who were meant to be would find me.
There was really nothing to do but trust the process.
The process is life.
When you recognize there is nothing you need, you become needless.
Needlessness is peace, happiness, understanding and trust.
My invitation to you- Be Present.
I want to invite you to explore each moment as it is, new, different and unique.
Understand that you don’t have to believe the thoughts that are rattling around in your head.
They are energy, true.
They are not the life force energy that you are made of, therefore they are not YOU.
It helped me to pretend that those thoughts were an external person.
Pretending they are not in you, makes you less likely to believe they are you; they are not.
This will also make you less likely to believe them as factual data.
Be present with those thoughts, observe them and don’t resist them, let the energy travel through you and soon they will dissipate.
Needlessness soon follows, because that energy loses its power over you.
I am always here as an ear to listen and help you find something new, reach out to me for a coaching call when you need a new perspective.
When you can truly witness your thoughts and don’t know where to turn you can purchase my Phoenix Program Workbook, take the guess work out of where to begin on your path to self-love.
Until next week,
Agape ❤ ,